SOMETHING IN ME LIKE TRAINS LEAVING
A very special friend from of mine who lives at the bottom of the world (but sends me messages from her own bright skies) forwarded me this strange and beautiful grief poem by Jean Valentine. It came just in time! Thank you, Deborah, and with endless love, Susie x
After: Isn’t there something
Isn’t there something in me
like the dogs I’ve heard at home
who bark all night from hunger? Something
in me like trains leaving,
isn’t there something in me
like a gun? I wanted to be
loud squirrels, around the trees’ feet,
bees, coming back & back
to the wooden porch,
wanting something—and wooden planks,
wanting something. To go back into
a tree?
I want to go back to you,
who when you were dying said
“There are one or two people you don’t want to
let go of.” Here too, where I don’t let go of you.
Jean Valentine